
nakita ko na naman ito… really really creative. and really really creepy. >.<
Thoughts and ramblings of a Filipino author

nakita ko na naman ito… really really creative. and really really creepy. >.<
There was a chill to the night air that cut right to the bone, I almost wanted to run back to the warmer confines of the office. I hugged my office blazer tighter around me. It was unusually cold, I thought, as it was the middle of summer. Oh, but who could predict the weather these days? So erratic.
I looked up. Not a single star was in sight. And the moon was barely visible from behind the dark thick clouds. Looked like it was going to rain. Felt like it too. And as if I was a sorceress, summoning the forces of nature (I was not. Definitely), an icy drop suddenly fell on my cheek.
“Uh-oh,” I muttered, opening my bag to fish out my umbrella. I was being fetched but my companion might not arrive soon. I could not very well just stand in the rain to wait.
He arrived even before my fingers could touch the little foldable. I felt a sudden rush at the sight of his car approaching. Heart flutters. Tummy flutters. Hands turn clammy and cold. Eyes brighten in anticipation. That kind of anticipation one gets when the one they love is near.
“Sorry, I’m late,” he greeted me as soon as he got off the car. He went around to the passenger side to open the door for me. Hugged me tight. Gave me a kiss before ushering me in. “Kanina ka pa?”
“No naman,” I shook my head before settling in. He just smiled and nodded then shut the door. He went around once more, got in the driver’s side. “So. Are you ready?” I popped the question when he had turned on the ignition and we were pulling out of the curb.
He didn’t need to answer. His smile said it all. I could even feel the excitement radiating from his body. Tonight was the night. We had been getting ready for this for the last couple of months. And as we neared our destination, my heart pounded faster. Heavier. The rain also started to pelt the small car with large, heavy globs.
“Thank you for all the help,” he kissed my cheek once more as he hugged me tight. Then he got off the car to fetch his soon-to-be fiancee. My best friend who he will ask tonight.
And I stare dry-eyed as the scene unfolded before me. The rain raged outside as I sat alone in silence. Really. I wasn’t a sorceress. I did not ask the heavens to cry for me.
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(c) jettegonzales/31Mar2014
published on http://8list.ph/lit-jette-gonzales-a-love-story/
16May2014
What am I really afraid of as a writer?
No, not writer’s block. I don’t ever experience writer’s block. I am lazy, that’s all. And I know that.
Rejected work? Been through a lot of that. Though I get jitters, I could even get sad and depressed, I’m not really afraid of getting rejections. As long as I get notes on how I should improve.
Detractors? Bashers? Nah! Am not afraid of them. They might tick me off. Maybe I’d put them on my hit list for saying bad things about my work. It’s different, you see, when one is given criticism vs. plain old bashing. Bashing’s malicious, seeking only to smear dirt on one’s rep.
Dissatisfied readers? Hmm… That would be a sad occurrence but one has to accept, readers have different tastes. But wait, if the reader is dissatisfied because I am suddenly producing below quality work? Knowing this would probably be a wake-up call for me. To be more on my toes. Yeah, I guess this is something I would be afraid of.
Ultimately though, what scares me is that years later, when the readers who have come to love my stories go back and reread my books in their more mature years, they’d smirk and admonish themselves and say, “I used to like this stuff?”
Yep. That’s what I am actually afraid of. So I try my darnedest to make my stories cut across all ages. So that later on, even if in a reader’s advanced years she would think the story is no longer for her, she would still recall with fondness how happy and how kilig she felt when she first read the story.
What about you? What are you afraid of as a writer?
First off, there’s

Sabotage with my love Joe Manganiello, Arnold Schwarzenegger, Sam Worthington and Josh Holloway
Lawd! Joe! You’re just hotness!
And then there’s

Ooohhh!!! And this!

I looooove Angelina Jolie!
Who’s with me??? 🙂